Bridal Shower : )

It was a Tuesday night when I was cracking my brains writing reports...then my lovely fiance came and asked me if I'd like to go out to 'smell flowers'... I wasn't suspicious at all and just thought to myself, yes, anything away from writing reports...

Then Justin took me down to the Grahams and there it was...a SURPRISE bridal shower awaiting for me. I was in shock. I thought I was 'smelling flowers'...

It was a lovely night- wish I was dressed better....hehe but people sang songs for me, so much food, and gifts!! I was very sad when I thought of my friends back home (as in America) but I know now that many Hebron staffs care for me! Justin got me another surprise- he got my friends in America to write something nice over fb and passed it on to me. So sweet.

As I look back... last year this time, I was in America thinking I'll be in China....
Now I'm off to Australia, and will be happily married by then : )

Boy Meets Girl

We both look so cute when we were kids : )

Goodbye Single Life...

In 48 days, I'm marrying my best friend, Justin.
It feels quite weird to think that someone like me, who is so anti-relationship, anti-dating, anti-marriage is actually leaving my precious singleness at the age of 23!

Well, it's amazing as I look back at the days when I just got to know this person...and now I'm going to become his wifey. Strange.

There are a few things I'm looking forward to:
1) having the same person for birthdays, Christmas holidays for many years.
2) living in one place for more than 5 years.
3) not dealing with issues with living with non-family members.
4) having someone next to me at night.
5) moving to Aussieland - the land of Kangaroos and Surfers. Lol.
and many more.

Anyways, I think Justin Hockey is worth giving up my single life.
So,
Goodbye, my single life.
Hello, Double life.
Double things are always better - like double cheese burgers (although I quit eating cheese due to health reasons), and double beds etc.

Status

Ok, it's 11: 30 pm in the night and I am trying to write this as sensible as possible...
I haven't wrote much lately...because of many things in life that sort of 'hinder' my sanity. Anyways...in about half and hour, it's going to be Friday, Good Friday.

Honestly, my relationship with God hasn't been all that great lately. I began to doubt whether God really loves me and etc. etc. Looking through 'facebook' status, I realized many things.

Firstly, there's an awful lot of people who are engaged, 'duh, ring by spring!' or getting in relationship....this 'changed status' really catches people's mind. I am thankful for this wonderful man that I am in a 'relationship with' by the name of Justin Hockey. He is a wonderful friend, brother and encouraging "H2B" hehe.

Then I felt a bit convicted about how much I care about my 'status'... Would I be this miserable loner if I wasn't in a relationship with a human being who cares for me? Maybe. But I really crave the times when I was perfectly happy even when I was single. To be really honest, I haven't been 100% happy just because I'm dating someone, although being in a relationship with a person like Justin is a blissful blessing.

I love my flatmate Katie, because she's so down-to-earth. And because she has a cool British accent. She told me the other day when I was pathetically sobbing because I felt so lonely, sentimental and stressed... "Esther, you're identity is in Jesus, who cares about what others think?" and that's what I wanted and needed to hear.

My status with a human being doesn't make get me to heaven.
My status with Jesus does.

Sigh.

Christ died for all of us because he loved us and he still does.

It's a simple and also a hard fact to embrace. Justin loves me but he can walk out of the relationship whenever he wants to. (Not that he'd do it...but...anyways) But God will never ever leave me. He sent his Son to die. wow. It's just amazing.

Anyways, I really need prayers. But I know that God is good.
All the things I worry about will be sorted out.

All I really need to care about is:
Esther Min is in a relationship with Jesus Christ.

Pleasing God...

Lately I've been struggling with faith because of my sinful nature. It has been difficult to be honest. What I really need is the touch of the Spirit to renew my soul, mind and body. I began to read 1 Thessalonians and got encouraged. I have been living a life to please people not God. That's why I failed!

"For our appeal does not spring from error or impurity or o any attempt to deceive,but just as we have been approved by God p to be entrusted with the gospel, so we speak, not to please man, but to please God who tests our hearts. For we never came with words of flattery,as you know, nor with a pretext for greed- God is witness." (1 Thessalonians 2:3-5)

Wow...I thought...God TESTS my heart. God knows what's going on in my life! How foolish of me to think that God doesn't care...I really want to please God in everything I do but I fail...many times. There's so much more to talk about on 1 Thessalonians, especially chapter 4 but till later...

I need God.
More than ever.

Simply love...

God calls us to 'simply love' others.
I love this guy because...
He is him.

He makes me laugh when I cry
He makes me happy when life sucks.

Happy as Ever!

Once upon a time,
I was this cute.

Well.....
I want to remind myself once again,
The joy of the Lord is my strength.

Happy 2010.
'tis the year of tiger. yeah.